“Does that feel good?”
“Oh Lay, that's amazing” he purred,
closing his eyes.
“You're so tense”, she said,
sitting behind him and kneading his shoulders with her paws. “Just
try to relax.”
“I'm feeling much more relaxed now”,
he said, leaning back and resting his head on her chest. He reached
up and put his paws around her neck.
“That's good”, she chuckled, gently
scratching his chest with her paws, “I want you to feel good.”
“And how are you feeling?” he
replied.
“Better than I have in as long as I
can remember” she sighed happily.
“I'm glad”, he said, looking up at
her. “Everyone else has been so dreary lately. It's so nice to
see a smiling face.”
She gave him a warm smile and eased him
down onto his back so his head was resting in her lap. Her fur was
so soft her legs might as well have been a cushion, and he felt
totally content lying there with her. “Comfy?” she asked,
rubbing his cheek.
“Very.”
She continued stroking his body with
her paws for a little while, purring softly as she did so. “I'm
happy we're finally able to spend time together like this.”
“Me too. I was so wrong about you,
Lay.” She gently slipped out from under him and sat beside him,
leaning in close so her face was close to his. “I used to think
you were totally self-absorbed, but you're not. You're wonderful.”
“Mm, tell me about how wonderful I
am”, she said, grinning widely and puffing the fur on her cheek
with her paw.
“You're kind, you're dependable,
you're trustworthy...” Her face seemed to light up with each
compliment, so he tried to think of more. “Smart, nice to be
around, soft...”
She crawled over him, her fluffy tail
held proudly aloft. “...and beautiful?”
“Amazingly beautiful.” He actually
wasn't sure what she meant by that, but he could tell how much she
wanted to hear it. The moment the words left his lips, her
expression changed, her eyes narrowed, her smile grew even wider, and
she leaned in so close that their noses were almost touching. He
wrapped his paws around her. “So what about me?” he asked
playfully. “Don't I get to hear what you like about me?”
She didn't even need a moment to think
about it: “You're dashing, brave, courageous, caring, exciting,
heroic, and the most loyal friend anyone could ever have. I've been
waiting as long as I can remember for someone like you, and I want
you as intensely as a woman can want a man.”
“You're better at this than I am”,
he laughed sheepishly.
“I'll teach you everything”, she
whispered. Her nose was touching his now, her radiant green eyes
staring right into his.
Corsair closed his eyes and nuzzled
her. “A lot of bad things have happened lately, but at least it
brought us together. I wouldn't want to go back to how things were
if it meant we'd go back to hating each other.”
“Oh Corsair.” She leaned forward
to kiss him. He wrapped his paws around her and pulled her body
close to his, and returned her kiss with everything he could muster.
They kissed again and again as he caressed her and held her close.
Finally, she pulled away from him,
staring at him through such heavily lidded eyes that he could barely
see the green anymore. “Are you ready?”, she asked, in a soft,
tender voice that was very much unlike how she usually spoke. He
nodded. Whatever came next, he knew he wanted to share it with her.
She leaned forward to kiss him one last
time, longer and more intensely than the others, then positioned
herself above him and took him inside her.
Nothing he had ever experienced
prepared him for what came next. A hundred confusing emotions danced
across his mind, but as he stared into her warm, smiling face, they
all merged into a single comforting feeling that was more powerful
than any he had ever known. His pain and fear seemed to melt away,
and he gave her everything, lost for a moment in a place where
nothing mattered but them.
---
“Corsair”, Lay whispered, after it
was all over. “You were everything I'd always hoped you'd be.”
“I never imagined I could feel like
that”, he admitted, holding her tight. “You really are
incredible.”
She laughed and buried her face in his
chest. “So are you.”
He gently ran his paw along the soft
fur on the back of her head, still marvelling at what they had just
shared. He had no idea something like that even existed. He had
felt some strange things before when he was with Sister or Sabre, but
he never would have thought to try something like that. He smiled
happily, holding her close to his heart. Ever since Sister came back
with that strange message, he had learned so much. The world was so
much bigger than he had ever imagined, and all he had to do was trust
in people and be open to what they had to teach him. He couldn't
wait to to share this with his friends, maybe Sister would finally
smile again.
“I should probably get back and check
on the others” he said, kissing her. “Thanks so much for this.”
He started to get up, but she clung
tightly to him. “Oh, they'll be okay for one night. Stay here
with me. We've only just found each other.”
“All right”, he said, snuggling
back down with her. He didn't want to leave her, either, so it was
easy to give in. This time, he was the one kissing her, as
passionately as he could, the feeling that he felt before
overwhelming all of his senses. He knew now what she had meant when
she said she wanted him, right now the one thing he wanted most was
to be with her.
“I'm surprised”, she said softly,
staring deep into his eyes. “I've always wanted you, but I never
really thought you'd choose me. I'm so happy, Corsair.”
“What do you mean?”
“I always thought it was Sister you
cared for this way. You two were always so close, and I felt so
jealous of her. It seems silly now.”
Corsair's heart sank into his stomach
and he felt like he would be sick. “Oh no”, he tried to say, but
nothing came out. It was as though his throat had completely closed
up.
“Anyway,” she said, smirking
confidently, “I know you're still new to this, but I guarantee I
can get you going again, and we can do it a different way this time.
Are you ready for round two?” She kissed him and began stroking
him with her paws.
“I...can't do this.” He managed to
say, weakly.
“Yes you can, trust me.” She
grinned. “You'll be shocked at what you're capable of with the
right help.” She was right, his body was ready for her, but in his
heart he knew he couldn't possibly go through with it.
“No, please, stop”. It killed him
to do it, but he gently pushed her away. She looked at him with a
fearful look in her eyes, and that hurt just as much. “This is
what Steven warned me about. The jealousy... I got caught up in the
moment, but Sister... this'll kill her.” With every word he could
see how much he was hurting her, and in the end he had to look away.
“So that's it, then.” she said, her
eyes welling up with tears. “In the end, you would always choose
her over me.”
“It's not like that-” He tried to
explain.
“Of course it is. I'm not stupid.
Or maybe I was, to think you might love me.” The tears were
streaming out of her eyes now and she made no effort to hide them.
“Lay, please... I just can't...”
Tears were starting to leak out of his eyes, too. He couldn't bear
the thought of losing her, not now. Why did things always have to go
this way?
“Do you think I haven't suffered
too!?” She shouted at him, fiercely. “Do you think I don't have
feelings?! That I'm not worth caring for?!”
“Of course not, I care for you more
than I ever thought possible. I want nothing more than to be with
you, but I can't hurt her any more. Please, try to understand.”
“Get out.” She growled bitterly.
“I never want to see you again.”
He wanted to speak again, to tell her
how much he cared for her and how much this had meant to him, but he
couldn't find the strength. There was nothing left for him here, not
anymore. With his head drooped, he walked towards the door and
gently pushed it open. He turned to look back one more time at the
broken woman he left behind him, and walked away.
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